What's up with this weather?

I walked 2 miles last Monday in the snow, all bundled up. Today, I walked that same 2 miles in 77 degree weather with all my kids and the baby in the stroller! It was a really nice day out. So beautiful! And it feels good to know that my exercise is done for the day. Because even though it was a nice day,

I still hate exercise!

Weigh-In: Week 9

Somehow I did it again. I can't help but feel that I don't deserve this because I wasn't on plan for most of the time this past week. I didn't exercise at all but most days I hardly ate at all, too. I can't keep that up, even if it does look mighty fine on the scale. And as proof that that it's not good to combine a busy, stressful week with not eating right, I'm not coming down with a cold. But maybe, in some way, I am making long term changes because this week would have given my the perfect excuse to overeat and just plain not care. In addition to a crazy busy week at work, my cat, who had been sick for a while, died. I had to make the decision to take him and put him down. No amount of comfort food can bring my cat back, right?



For some reason I thought that my weigh-in from last week was lower, but it was the same as this week. Not much to be proud of, but at least I didn't gain. I'm trying to wrap my brain around why someone who wants to be slender so badly would continue to eat sabotage foods in sabotage amounts. I am so miserable at this weight....I just hate the way my body feels. I have to find a way to get through this. Now that baby Elvis is eating well and gaining weight, maybe I can relax and get back into getting myself healthy.

Derailed.

Absent Girl's been at it again. Just when she recommits and decides to give this her all, she gets bad news from the pediatrician. Then, just when she decides that the pediatrician has Ramen noodles for brains and that she should just trust her motherly intuition and get on with it, she gets the mother of all head colds.

I have been severely derailed.

And knowing how stressful life has been lately, and also knowing that I cannot possibly keep all my irons in the fire all burning at the same intensity, I have come to realize that it's time to revamp my goals for weight loss. I still want to lose 50 pounds, mind you; but for the time being, the intensity of my efforts is going to have to slow down a bit. But seeing as how I am often an all-or-nothing girl, I think it's a good thing to try a lower intensity instead of just giving up. So in an effort to adapt to my surroundings/circumstances/pediatrician attacks, here is what I'm working toward at the moment:

• Walking at least 3 times a week (I did walk in the snow this Monday!)
• Drinking lots of water
• Eating and enjoying healthy foods
• Attempting to exercise portion control (this is so hard for me because I eat fast)
• Limiting, not omitting, treats

I'm afraid that's the best I can do right now. But it really is better than nothing. I've gained weight over the last 3 weeks, and it's time to stop that insanity. It may take me a while, but at least I'll be moving in the right direction.

Betty Lou, thanks for not giving up on me!

Weigh-In: Weeks 7 & 8

Let's see. Week 7 was a decent weigh-in but I knew it was somewhat of a fluke. I wasn't surprised when I weigh-in this week (Week 8) and saw that I'd gained a little bit back.

Still... this is week 8--almost week 9-- and I haven't even lost a pound a week on average. I have nobody to blame but myself. I need to make me a priority and it's so hard! I'm just trying to stick to my plan for a day, and sometimes an hour, at a time.



Peggy Sue says that Peggy Sue is a loser! Okay, not in the good way either. I've been so stressed lately and it's shown up on the scales. Still adjusting to baby #5 (shouldn't this be old hat for me by now??) and having a hard time dealing with everything in life. I have to resort my goals...will be posting about that soon. I feel bad that I've basically abandoned Betty Lou, although she knows the stress I've been under, as well as the fact that I've been pretty sick this week. All I can do is keep trying to be healthier. But I worry that I may never realize my slender-as-this-body-will-get dreams.

Day 60: Daily Report

Breakfast

• Fage 0% yogurt
• Go Lean Crunch
• blueberries
• 1 tsp honey

Snack

• Balance Bar

Lunch

• chicken soup
• 12 pretzels
• apple

Snack

• Balance Bar

Dinner

• meatloaf (ground turkey, brown rice, lots o' diced veggies)
• green salad w/lf balsamic

Water

• 80oz

Exercise

• No. Argh!

Calories/fat/% 2284/72/28%

Observations: I thought I was doing so well today and I let the thought of some stupid cookies through me way off. I purposely didn't buy any this years and then I got word that my daughter did and that they were on their way home. So I had that second Balance Bar and ened up with a stomach ache. Dang Girl Scouts. I'd also planned to walk 3 miles this evening and a huge storm blew in. If it was sprinkling, no big deal, but it's seriously windy and pouring now. I should have stuck to my original plan of getting my exercise done in the morning, but for some reason, that NEVER happens!

Daily Report: Day 59

Breakfast

• cheese bagel w/1 tblsp lf cream cheese
• 1 cup grapes

Lunch

• cheese bagel egg sandwich
• handful of raisins
  

Snack

• nf cappuccino
• 1 piece dark chocolate

Dinner

• roasted chicken breast
  
• 1 cup roasted (w/splash of olive oil) veggies (cauliflower, cherry tomatoes, carrots)
• 1 cup mashed potatoes/cauliflower (made with plain greek yogurt)

Water

• about 80 oz

Exercise

• not

Calories/fat/%: 1599/44/24%

Observations: I went a little overboard with the bagels early in the day but I ended up ok for the day. I was busy all day, but didn't get any exercise in...that fact that it rained all day didn't help. For the next week, I'm going to try to get up early and get my exercise in first thing.